Sickness

i'm very very sick ahhh... 4 days liao my stomach is still in the same state 'stomach flu' i cant eat well, cant sleep well, cant eat many things like eg things made from milk, chilli, oily food and i need to drink isotonic drink...

SLEEPY

~fonz-jm

Some times

sometimes thing are meant to be like this... things needed to be settle, some just dun even bother... ahaha! sleepy now blog another time!

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i'm speechless

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Desperado

i'm so desperate. of so many things. the future, my life & etc.... what will i be in the future? good guy? bad guy? why at this moment things makes me thinking like a mad person some more at a funny hour where everyone in singapore is sleep though some are not sleeping... possessions, sex life, priesthood, married life & etc

one thing that i dun like the night is i'm not sure whether i will be alive for tomoro. what i know as a christian that is i have to look at Jesus Christ who will be my salvation and eternal life. i still cant see the fact that i came from a screw up family and a religion that have to be a light and salt to the world.

i remembered what Fernando told me on the bus to somewhere in Germany in World Youth Day '05 'Alphonsus, remember that you are not god and dun try to be god cause there is only one God who is your Father & our Father' when i look back in my life i only can see the boy who got nothing with him but just wan to have affection from everyone that he meets. i truly agree with my catechist that she said 'a child who comes from a broken/divorce family always carry a wound in him/her' i guess for myself the wound is very deep and may bleed out the blood. ahhh i dun wan to think so much liao.

Lord i know you are the Way, the Truth and the Life. Please show it to me daily. Amen

~fonz-jm

Things that makes me think

Marriage... Sex... Pornography... Masturbation... Dressing... Divorce... a Children come for a divorce/broken family...

these are the things that makes me think REAL hard in my head... i know and some people do now that i come from a broken family and the drama started when i was a kid i guess when i was K2? or even K1. but i find its true that when my mum and dad divorce i carry the wound inside me and i never want anyone to know about it only God knows me inside out. i guess for me i really have to see that there is Love in God and God wants us to give love to others also in a way if i'm marriage to the girl that i love no matter what it take if she have to go behide me do some funny things and backstab me i still have to love her as on the day when i made the Marriage Vow to her and to the church... thats what the church teaches and is still up to me whether i want to follow it anot...

'This is only for Married People' Sex is a Good & Holy act in the see of God. a women is not for herself and same to the man both partners give total percent to each other. God who is the Giver of Life how can a married couple count how many children they want. i find it very funny lor. pray before and after having sex... -_-' i think it will help a lot for those married people who thinks that they are so smart alex... only with the help of God and by doing His will, He will give those couple childrens and i do believe in this...

So what is the Will of God for me?


Be a Married Man?


Be Single?


Be a Religious Brother?


Be a Priest?

i guess is for me to find out what is His will for me but i know he has already plan for me... at this point i will let my body have some rest...

'Some are Married, Some Single, Some Religious/Priest but ALL are CALLED'

~fonz-jm

Nothing

i realised that i got nothing to blog now a dayz... WHAT HAPPEN TO ME!

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Reminder

i will be away for a Retreat from 15 - 17 june 07

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Con 3 Camp

i'm very sorry that i have not being blogging for like ages... ahaha!

con 3 camp was FUN! learn lots of stuff with the kids and other facils and only this year the camp i have a chance to give a session! ahhh! but i realize is not easy to facilitate a group... i was with grp 4 and after 1 session thomas had to ask me to help another group cause they were so emo and not talking to each other poor 2 facils had to push and push them and yet no answer but just and short answers like eg "ok la, so so, good and etc" so in the end i had to help out in 2 groups so now i let the pics do the talking...






~fonz-jm outta......

Trinity Sunday

The first Sunday after Pentecost, instituted to honour the Most Holy Trinity. In the early Church no special Office or day was assigned for the Holy Trinity. When the Arian heresy was spreading the Fathers prepared an Office with canticles, responses, a Preface, and hymns, to be recited on Sundays. In the Sacramentary of St. Gregory the Great (P.L., LXXVIII, 116) there are prayers and the Preface of the Trinity. The Micrologies (P.L., CLI, 1020), written during the pontificate of Gregory VII (Nilles, II, 460), call the Sunday after Pentecost a Dominica vacans, with no special Office, but add that in some places they recited the Office of the Holy Trinity composed by Bishop Stephen or Liège (903-20) By other the Office was said on the Sunday before Advent. Alexander II (1061-1073), not III (Nilles, 1. c.), refused a petition for a special feast on the plea, that such a feast was not customary in the Roman Church which daily honoured the Holy Trinity by the Gloria, Patri, etc., but he did not forbid the celebration where it already existed. John XXII (1316-1334) ordered the feast for the entire Church on the first Sunday after Pentecost. A new Office had been made by the Franciscan John Peckham, Canon of Lyons, later Archbishop of Canterbury (d. 1292). The feast ranked as a double of the second class but was raised to the dignity of a primary of the first class, 24 July 1911, by Pius X (Acta Ap. Sedis, III, 351). The Greeks have no special feast. Since it was after the first great Pentecost that the doctrine of the Trinity was proclaimed to the world, the feast becomingly follows that of Pentecost.

~fonz-jm outta......