Dramatic Moment

last nite i fight with my elder brother and i feel so bad and keep on saying "Jesus, Son of David, have mercy on me a sinner" without stoping till i slept at 4am in the late morning. it started like this...

- my brother asked me to sleep at my dad's room cause of the gf was staying at our place. 'she stayed here like dam long lor' so i didnt bother but i wen to sleep
- after i sleep he kick me to wake me up and ask me to go to my dad's room but i shouted that i wanted to sleep
- he came towards me i could not take it so i push him without any force but he bang the eger of his table and the fan drop and is GONE den my dad woke up to stop us from fighting
- and for that moment i couldnt move and i dunno why i cant move and tears just rush out from my eyes and also i got problem my nose
- after my dad scolded my brother he came to help me and 1st time i see my dad cried in front of me -_-' and i was helped to his room to put to sleep but i cant sleep and i cant move also and in myt heart i was saying "Jesus, Son of David, have mercy on me a sinner" until 4am den i slept

today i was with my community for Word and the Word of God touch me and help me to realized that God was the one who make me not to move and to fight back cause i didnt have Faith in Him that he will take care of my being at anywhere. i felt so bad at myself and i know i dun have Faith and the Church has given me a Sign of what is faith. Faith is Abraham not because he is the Father of Faith but he Listened to Yahweh and follow his voice. thank God that my live was not taken away but i was given a chance to return to Him the God of Abraham, Issac & Jacob... Peace!

~fjm outta......