How to know the will of God?

something makes me wanna write this out to all you guys to see and read... how to know the will of God for myself....

i was talking on the phone with a religious brother and we were talking about how to know the will of God in my life... and to see the day i was born till now... i can say that truly i'm a failer and a great sinner of anyone cause i think i cannot be a winner then to be a loser... i think that is what i'm call for... so for those people out there who are book smarts think again that why you have the talent to study well and not fail in your exams

can see that after leaving shatec and going to ite is like another wrong choice i made again... again and again i will always make the wrong choice... i just remember what a catholic priest told me at the age of 11... this is what he said "alphonsus if you are not careful, you will end up in jail" this word kept me thinking for a long long long time... maybe i'm meant to be there...

ohh that religious brother told me stop studying and just going to army and see what God has plan for me... in truth i say I'm scared of ARMY... really... I AM! some more this year i'm coming to 18 years old liao... is just sooner or later i have to end up in ARMY...

i think my life now is screw up... what a SCREW up LIFE!

i hope that God is looking at this now.... how to live a life like those people "happy go lucky" type recalling what one of my friend from CTK said "be a somebody den be a nobody" truly i can say that i'm a nobody... AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! i think i dun feel good now... NO MORE COMMENTS to tell me WHAT TO DO IN MY LIFE rather let me LIVE MY OWN LIFE!

Oh God have mercy on me a poor sinner......

this is fonz jm reporting you this news. . .
fjm outta......